Started the year with telling myself, no, not him, it’ll never be, over and over again until I started believing it and from then I don’t feel what I felt for him anymore. Is it this easy? or is it going to come running back? what I know is, distance is the key.
I’ve lost all the hard effort progress I have made to stop liking you and have not yet demolish that ‘hope’ feeling.
It’s been nearly 2 months, and I’ve been missing him so much that I really regret not accepting his apology text. As I came to the party from the 18th I saw my amazing girls and one of them were like “we were just talking about you” and he was sitting there with them and walked away. I asked one of the girls what they were talking about and she said that he said him and I haven’t talked for 4 months. I made me happy that he did care and he calculated longer than the exact months we haven’t talk. He explained how we got in to a little fight and I took it ‘too far’ and stopped talking. I then laughed it off and thought how did I take it too far when he treated me like shit. I was sitting on the ground when he came over and said something, kept repeating it and I do not recall what he said. Then I laughed at him. He came up to me and said “you know we haven’t talked in months?” “Why’d you stop talking to me” and my friend said “cause she hates you” then I interrupted telling him it’s because he called me a “dumb cuuunnn” which I didn’t pronounce with the ‘t’ sound because I’m a good girl. He laughed and I grabbed out for his bailey and things just went back to..okay state, not to good. He then told my friend we’re good..and when I left I gave him a nice long hug and it was cute and now I am very happy and should write this all down in case I forget muaha due to being intoxicated still :)
And scabbed $15 whaaadddddup
